so i guess this is how it goes.
i don't know what to do now.
until monday?
i hope i can give you a good answer on monday.
i didn't mean to hurt you.
i didn't mean to give you false hope.
maybe we both thought that we can go though this.
but in the end.
our past catches up with us.
i'm trying my very best.
i know i am.
i'm trying to be the right person for you.
but at the same time.
i want to be honest to myself.
i want to do whats right.
i don't know how i can commit when i don't know what i want and who i am.
which is why its difficult.
to want anything from you.
to want to continue.
maybe i'll know what answer to give you on monday.
or maybe ill just let it come naturally.

jiawen & dunfu;
thanks for helping me when i need someone to hear me ramble.
and thanks for being my pillar of strength.
i just want you to know how much it means to me to have friends like you.
and i thank God for people like you.

and i'm just starting to think that i'm better off alone.
yes nessa.
go be a nun.
cause God will never leave you alone.
thats for sure.